(SHORT
STORY)
(Rendered
from Telugu by ‘Rasika’)
The
moment Sitapati set foot in his house his wile Sundari swept into his presence
from the kitchen where she had been in tantrums, evidently, for some time. She
peered into his face scrutinisingly, curled her lips
and returned to the kitchen. Sitapati paused at the doorstep for a moment,
mystified by this unusual greeting and walked slowly into his room. He first
unbuttoned his coat and hung it on the stand. Significant sounds of falling
vessels assailed his ears. He dropped down on the worn-out tape cot staring
hard at the wall that stood between him and the kitchen.
What
could be the reason for this mood of Sundari? He had not uttered even a single
word to provoke her since daybreak. He recollected the smile on her face with
which she had sent him off to the office in the morning. ‘What could have
occurred subsequently to put her out? Perhaps, the mischief
of the children. No, anything so simple and normal could not account for this extraordinary demonstration. He began to
revolve in his mind all the conceivable possibilities. But he could not arrive
at a satisfactory explanation. The problem, unsolved, developed into a
headache.
‘With
all our efforts and economies, our earnings suffice at best to make both ends
meet. We are never able to spare anything for satisfying the fancy of the
children even once in a way.’ Such words also found their way to his ears, from
the other side of the wall. He felt mortified.
‘Quite
true!’ he reflected. ‘My meagre earnings enable me just to carry on somehow,
with difficulty.’ His glance rested on the thread-bare coat on the stand, with
the big patches at the elbows and the loose fibres at
the edges, and the button-holes gaping at the vacant button-places. The colour of the cloth had long ago changed into a dull grey.
This remnant of an ancient coat, he reflected with gratitude, contrived to
serve heroically to preserve his respectability, concealing from exposure the
tattered shirts underneath. From the coat, his gaze strayed to the sandals
below it. As he jerked them off his feet on entering the room one of them had
fallen upside down showing the ugly pieces of cardboard with which the sole was
stuffed. It was a revolting sight. ‘We have served you loyally for so many
years. We have been crushed under your feet every day. We are quite done up. Is
there no release for us?’–they seemed to plead.
‘The
cobbler demands a rupee and four annas for repairs.
Where to find so much for this single item?’ reflected Sitapati and tried to
stretch his back full on the cot. The worn-out tape snapped at once. Everything
in the house, every individual object seemed to him to bear eloquent testimony
to his incompetence. ‘This tape is really very old. How long can it serve? reflected Sitapati very considerately, in an attempt to
reconcile himself to his irremediable position. Meanwhile the noise in the
kitchen also appeared to have died down. ‘Where is the alternative if I refuse
to be provoked and refrain from retorting?’ observed Sitapati in a mood of
self-congratulation. This wisdom Sitapati had acquired even before the end of
the first year of his married life. Otherwise, if he took notice of the
perpetual grumbling and frequent exhibitions of temper of Sundari, where had
they been by now?
‘I
should be a fool to expect coffee today, considering the storm in the kitchen
all this time,’ he thought, and rose from the cot.
‘Tomorrow
is the last day for payment of school-fees. Names of defaulters will be struck
off the rolls.’ Prasad burst in with this comforting
intimation. Sitapati began to scratch his skull, by way of reaction. Prasad repeated his courteous notice, still in doubt
whether his jaded father had grasped the significance of the announcement. ‘All
right, we shall see about it,’ drawled out Sitapati at last, listlessly, as he
stepped out of the room. It was unbearable torture for him to stay in the
house. He was only waiting for the coffee, to gulp it down and escape into the
street. But now he suddenly recollected: he had himself declared last night, as
a measure of economy to balance the tottering budget, that coffee in the
evening should be scrapped. He was really a fool to have waited so long. He
thrust his feet into the tattered sandals and stepped out.
He
was walking along the road briskly, but his mind was all in a whirl. Many
agitating thoughts rushed through his mind one after another in quick
succession. Many times he asked himself: ‘How long am I to endure this life, so
full of woes and only woes?’ He could formulate no answer to the question and therefore,
perhaps, he came to it again and again. Somebody wished him. He could grasp it
only after be had passed along and out of his sight. He was surprised, at his
own absent-mindedness. His glance rested on the big ‘Grow More Food’ poster on
the wall opposite. With a smile of derision he commented within himself.
‘Perhaps more food will grow by fixing huge posters on walls in towns at a cost
of thousands of rupees!’ He came to the crossroads. He paused for a moment to
choose the road he should follow. ‘One may listen to the radio in the public
park,’ he thought and took the road to the park. He passed by a Government
office. He found, in the yard enclosing it, a number of saplings, planted in
lines at regular distances. Each was carefully fenced round, for protection
from animals evidently. But the plants within were withered and drooping. ‘This
is the result of the tree planting festival (Vanamahotsava)...Thousands
of trees planted in a fit of enthusiasm and most of them, like these, withering
for want of proper care and nourishment! Who is to blame for this colossal
waste of public funds and effort? At this rate how can the movement progress
and the ideals bear fruit?’ He reached the park by this time, entered and
squatted on the sward in a secluded corner. The radio was pouring out a talk on
‘The Grow More Food Campaign’. ‘Why this obsession with the
campaign to grow more food? How is it, no one bothers about fair
distribution and healthy consumption of the food that is produced!’ he
wondered. The lights were on. It was pleasant to sit on the sward listening to
the radio and pursuing his own thoughts. But he felt
hungry. ‘God could create man but He could not free him from hunger and thirst!’
he reflected, got up reluctantly and proceeded homeward slowly.
At
meals in the night Sitapati scrupulously maintained a discreet silence.
Sundari, however, resumed her grumbling, with insinuations and innuendoes aimed
at him, every now and then. He felt it rather hot every way. He swallowed a
glassful of water, complained of excess of pepper in the
sauce and asked for a little extra ghee.
‘Where
is the ghee for extras?’ snapped Sundari. ‘The half a seer you brought the
other day was over long ago. It was literally the last drop that I flicked on
your plate today.’
‘True,’
Sitapati admitted to himself. ‘How long could half a seer of
ghee go for a family of half a dozen members? It is creditable on the
part of Sundari to have stretched it to go for a week,’ and he kept mum.
Prasad was seated by him.
Coolly he added, ‘After you left in the evening, the doctor’s man called with
the bill.’
‘Oh!’
exclaimed Sitapati putting down his glass of water which he had again lifted
up.
‘The
child showed temperature in the evening. You had better take her
to the doctor tomorrow morning without fail,’ Sundari rubbed in.
‘If
we consult the doctor for every slight ailment, how can we get on? Already we
owe him a lot,’ whinced Sitapati.
‘We
must first pay up the arrears due to him before we can approach him for fresh
attendance,’ laid down Prasad with a judicial air.
‘With
all this stinginess of father and son, there does not seem to be any huge
saving,’ taunted Sundari, exasperated at their seeming heartlessness. Sitapati realised that unless he could resist the temptation to
retort, it would end in a regular scene; he finished his meal quickly and
retired to his room.
He
lifted the bed sheets from the cot, and attempted to mend the broken tape. At
last he managed it after a lot of effort, made his bed and reclined on it.
Meanwhile Sundari had finished her work in the kitchen and she now approached
the cot, placed a vessel of drinking water under it, and sat at the feet of her
husband. Sitapati slyly peered into her face and assured himself that her bad
temper had at last subsided.
But
she put it straight to him now, without any beating about the bush. ‘Is it true
you told Mr. Viswanatham, our neighbour,
that you decided not to invite your daughter and son-in-law for the New Year
festival?’ Thus Sitapati could at last understand the real source of all the
bad temper since early morning. ‘Why don’t you speak out?’ she demanded.
‘So
his wife has been in such a hurry to carry the tale to you?’
‘What!
you do not deny having said it! But she should not
have carried it to me! It seems you had advised him also to follow your
glorious example and avoid bringing his daughter and son-in-law too for the
festival?
‘There
you are wrong. It was quite the other way. It was really his idea. It was he
suggested it to me.’
‘Let
them alone. Let us attend to our affairs. It was only this year we sent our
girl to her father-in-law’s. This is the first New Year festival after she
left. Is it fair to refrain from bringing her
home for this first festival in her new career? How will she take it? Mr. Viswanatham has been inviting his daughter and son-in-law
for the festival and having them with the family every year since her marriage.
So he can afford to avoid it once in a way, this year. But how can we follow
his example? Already the neighbours are pestering me
with their enquiries as to when the girl is to be expected. The festival is not
even ten days off...She rattled on without giving him so much as a chance to
put in a word, till she had concluded.
‘What
you say is quite true,’ Sitapati was obliged to admit, ‘but please consider. Is
it a simple affair to get daughter and son-in-law home for the festival? New
clothes and decent clothes at that, have to be
presented to both of them. It means a lot of money. Can we afford it, in our
present circumstances and financial difficulties?’
‘Our
financial difficulties are always there,’ came her ready reply, ‘can we hope to
be free from them at any conceivable time in the near future? Somehow we have
to manage. How can we avoid it?’ she contended. ‘We have to avoid, when we
cannot afford it,’ he retorted, ‘we have not been able to clear even a fraction
of the debt we contracted for her marriage. And we have to repay a hundred
other loans. If I do not pay the school-fees for Prasad
tomorrow, his name will be struck off the rolls. The doctor’s bill has to be
paid. We cannot postpone it any longer and approach him again for advice and
attendance. How to meet all these at once?’
‘You
are always ready with your arguments against every suggestion of mine. Always
it is the same slogan of “No funds”. You are safe and you do not care. I am the
target of criticism in society. This is the first year after Susi’s marriage. If we do not bring her and her husband for
the festival, we will be making ourselves contemptible in the eyes of all. It
is scandalous and ridiculous.’
‘How
can we get on if we fear the criticism and ridicule of neighbours
and relations at every step? They can afford to criticise
liberally. But if we incur thereby expenditure beyond our means, will they come
to our rescue in our troubles?’ demanded Sitapati heroically.
‘What
is the use of such unreasonable arguments? Is it no disgrace or dishonour to yon?’
Sitapati
realised that further discussion was worse than
useless and certain to lead nowhere but to tears in her eyes in the
end. So he concluded as usual with–‘We shall see about it’, and saved the
situation for the time being. She felt somewhat mollified, got up and
approached her bed.
Sitapati
had no sound sleep that night. He began to reflect that his case was only one
instance of the numerous middle-class population
struggling to maintain a false status and prestige to which their finances were
unequal, especially in the matter of domestic and social customs and
observances. There could be no peace for the individual without a basic
reconstruction of the social and economic foundations of society and the middle
classes were doomed to frustration and misery till then.
The
next day, while Sitapati was at his desk in the office, the postman delivered a
letter to him. He scrutinised the superscription for
a moment, and recognising the handwriting, guessed it
to be from his daughter, tore open the envelope and read the letter through.
The blood altogether vanished from his face by the time he had finished.
The
clerk at the neighbouring desk observed the rapid
change in his countenance and questioned him with anxiety. ‘Wherefrom is the
letter? Does it convey good news? Are all your people safe?’ Sitapati nodded to
indicate answers in the affirmative to the last questions. ‘Then why do you
look so shocked and dazed?’ the friend pursued. ‘No. There is nothing the
matter. Only my daughter writes to say she is coming for the festival.’ ‘Why,
that is good news and matter for jubilation. My congratulations,’ said the
friend in his innocence. ‘How can he divine my misery?’ brooded
Sitapati.
In
spite of his reluctant promise, ‘Yes, we shall see about it’ extorted from him
by his wife the previous night, Sitapati had resolved to drop the idea of
bringing over his daughter for the festival. But he found himself in a tight
corner now and it seemed unavoidable. His daughter put it so adroitly: ‘We are
expecting father any moment to go over here to take us there for the festival.’
His wife had already warned him; if he now refrained from bringing over his
daughter and son-in-law for the festival, the parents of his son-in-law would
feel entitled to despise and slight him ever after: If he wished to avoid their
contempt, he had to incur extra expenditure running up to a hundred rupees. He
found himself on the horns of a dilemma.
He
could not find a way out, however much he tried. If he invited them he should
present to them decent clothes, in keeping with his (imagined) and their
(presumed) status. Even at the time of the marriage, there was a complaint that
he had presented to his daughter one saree less than
the number prescribed by custom. He had managed to avoid a crisis on that issue
by promising to present a silk saree to her on the
first New Year Day festival after the marriage.
It
was imperative for him now to redeem the promise. “But he resolved to invite
them only by letter. It was not quite necessary for him to go over personally
to fetch them. Why should he put himself to an additional expense of over
twenty rupees for the journey? But he had to find a benefactor willing to lend
him just a hundred rupees.
His
friend Ranganatham, another clerk in the same office,
he recollected, had told him once casually that, in an emergency, he had
borrowed from some one paying interest at two annas
per rupee per month. Suppose he resorted to that course, sure as anything, that
way lay ruin for him. He could never extricate himself
from the morass. His mind began to work furiously, and in his excitement he
waved his hand aside. It struck against the ink bottle on the table, upsetting
it and spilling the ink on the files. Thus he came back to the reality of his
immediate surroundings, regretted his absent-mindedness due to preoccupation
with domestic problems. He called the peon, set the papers right and attended
to the work on hand.
Early
in the morning, on the day previous to the New Year Day, Susila, his daughter,
and her husband Syamala Rao duly arrived. Sitapati and his son Prasad were on the platform when the train steamed in.
Sitapati extended a warm welcome to his son-in-law with an affectionate
embrace. But the shrewd young man noticed a strange shadow of concern in the
countenance of his father-in-law, which he was not able to account for. Sundaramma was extremely happy when the party reached home,
and quite pleased that she could have her daughter and son-in-law with her for
the festival. Susila caressed her little brother, the latest of the series, and
joined her mother in her household work, describing to her at the same time the
ways and manners of her husband’s family.
‘Your
son-in-law was very reluctant to undertake this visit and agreed at last only
after a good deal of coaxing and persuasion,’ she explained to her mother. In
the night, when all others had retired to bed, she lay beside her mother and
hummed for her the new tunes she had learnt after leaving her parental home.
Sitapati
was also happy, but only apparently. He was trying his best to hide the agony
at his heart from the observation of others. But the son-in-law, whose
suspicion had already been roused, was noticing the shadow all the time, even
while engaged in pleasant conversation with all the members of the family.
The
New Year Day dawned. The prescribed routine of oil bath, tasting the bitter margosa blossom, etc., was observed. Syamala Rao felt
embarrassed by the special attention and regard shown to him in every matter by
all the members of the family, including the elders, his father-in-law and
mother-in-law. He could not understand why they should be so respectful to a
young man simply because he happened to be a son-in-law. Instead of treating
him as just another member of the family, they showered presents on him and showed
respect and attention as to a superior officer. He wondered, ‘Why so much fuss
and so many presents? Is it for fear that otherwise he might not treat their
daughter properly? Perhaps many such families are obliged to run into debt on
account of these traditional observances.’ The previous night Susila had shown
him the new clothes purchased by her father for presentation to them on the New
Year Day. He must have spent a lot for these presents while the other children
were all evidently neglected, with no decent clothes to wear even on the
festival day. He knew it would be so. That was the reason why he had hesitated
to undertake the visit. But Susila had insisted, with tears in her eyes, that
she would go only if he accompanied her. So he had to yield in the end.
After
the formalities in the morning, Syamala Rao went out for a look at the town,
and Sitapati to his office to attend to urgent papers.
Sundari,
with evident satisfaction and zest, settled in the kitchen for preparing the
dishes, ordinary and extraordinary. Susila was with her, helping her in slicing
the vegetables for the curry. The children were enjoying the festival in their
own boisterous way.
Susila
slyly broached, ‘Mother, let us all go to the cinema tonight.’ Her mother
responded cautiously, ‘Let us put it to your father. It means a lot of expense,
if all of us are to go.’
‘Never
mind the expense. Let your son-in-law stand it for this item,’ persisted Susila
wilfully.
‘No,
no, that is out of the question. How can we allow the son-in-law to spend for
us today? But your father is just now short of funds. Already he has borrowed a
lot, dear. But my brother gave me ten rupees when he visited me last. I have
set it apart for any emergency that may arise. Let us use it
now, if you are keen on the cinema.’
The
conversation was interrupted at this stage as Syamala Rao entered and passed
straight to his room. Susila too left the kitchen and followed him into the
room.
‘So
you are planning to empty the meagre private purse of your mother to enjoy the
cinema tonight?’ Evidently he managed to catch some part of the conversation of
mother and daughter, as he passed to his room.
‘No,
no, that is what my mother proposes. And we have not yet decided. But what is
this parcel? Whom are these clothes for and why have you brought them?’ she
asked as she opened the parcel he had brought.
‘Couldn’t
you guess? Isn’t it a festival for your brothers and sisters too?’ He had
purchased new clothes for all the children of the family.
‘This
is nice. But isn’t it strange that a son-in-law should present clothes to the
members of his father-in-law’s family? How much have you spent on them?’ she
enquired.
‘Why
should you consider it strange? We may receive and put on with glee the clothes
presented to us by them, but it is strange if we present clothes to the
children!’ he retorted. Susila was silenced. She took up the parcel and walked
in to her mother, exclaiming with pride and pleasure, ‘Mother, here are
clothes for the children, presented by your son-in-law!’
They
had finished their meal. All were dressed in new clothes except Sitapati and
his wife. Sitapati was in his room, seated on the old cot with the worn-out
tape, reviewing mentally the money he had to spend for each item in connection
with this visit of his daughter and son-in-law. But he was happy, too, in a
way. Pulling at the country cigar between his lips, he reflected, with the
satisfaction of having narrowly escaped from a calamity, that his friend and neighbour Viswanatham had nearly
given him the slip. After assuring him repeatedly that he did not propose to
invite his daughter and son-in-law for the festival this year, he did bring
them over even a day earlier than Sitapati. Sitapati had done well in yielding
to the importunity of Sundari. Otherwise....
Susila
and Syamala Rao, dressed in the new clothes presented to them stood before him.
He had not noticed their entering the room.
‘Stretch
out your legs, Father. Let us bow before your feet and receive your blessings,’
said Susila. ‘Why so much formality,’ protested Sitapati, but he
stretched his legs as desired, nevertheless. Daughter and son-in-law bowed and
he blessed them heartily. Susila departed immediately in response to a call
from her mother in the kitchen. Syamala Rao also followed her to the door. The
gaze of Sitapati involuntarily strayed to the patched-up coat on the coat-stand
and the tattered sandals below it. He was startled by the word, ‘Father-in-law,
sir,’ from Syamala Rao at the door.
‘What
is the matter, my boy,’ he said affectionately.
‘Here
is a hundred-rupee note. I have been commissioned by my parents to hand it over
to you. It was proposed to present clothes to both of you if you went over
there to invite us for the festival, but you did not, and we are obliged to
adopt this method,’ and he approached him holding out the note.
Sitapati
was stunned. It was so unexpected. There was no such convention, so far as he
knew. And if Susila had known of this strange commission from her
father-in-law, she would have surely given him an inkling of it in advance.
Evidently she did not know. Perhaps the present was only from his sensible
son-in-law, Syamala Rao. He must have guessed the real state of affairs here.
It was so lucky, after all, and the amount was a godsend. He could clear the
new loan altogether with it and the visit would have cost him nothing. But how
could he take advantage of the generous impulse of a young man? It was not
proper for a father-in-law to accept a present from his son-in-law on the New
Year Day. ‘There is no need for any such thing,’ he said aloud, at last. ‘It is
not at all unnecessary, nor is there any impropriety in it. Please take it.
Susila may come back any moment,’ said Syamala Rao and he handed over the note.
Sitapati was in a fix. His heart was in a flutter. He stretched his trembling
hand and took it.” Syamala Rao was moved by the sight. The poor gentleman was
agitated on receiving money from him. Perhaps he had done wrong in causing him
so much mental suffering, through misguided sympathy.
Meanwhile
the call came from the kitchen for the evening tea. Syamala Rao went in and
Sitapati followed a moment later, putting the hundred-rupee note in his pocket.
He was still wavering. I should have refused to take it. But
how can I return it now? He may take offence. Anyway, I am
extremely lucky in my son-m-1aw. Such a sensible and considerate son-in-law is
indeed a rare phenomenon,’ he reflected and tears of Joy gathered in his eyes.
He had never relished his tea so well as on this New Year Day.