FUN WITH THE GUN

 

Dr. P. Dhanavel

 

Ramesh returned from school on a Friday evening, eager to play with his new gun for the next two days freely.  He could outshoot Rahul and Satish, he thought.  His father had promised him his gun.  And his mother had backed up his demand.  Then he knew that his father would not be able to backtrack.

 

“Mother where is the gun?” he asked his mother, putting down his school bag on the floor.  “The gun! What do you want to do with the gun?” she shouted back.  The boy looked at his mother with seething anger and crying fingers.  “This house is not worth a toy gun, I am going away”.  He was crying and running was he, out of the house.  Mother ran behind him for a few yards, Ramesh was off on the main road.

 

As he was walking along the road, he was lured into a small thatched shop with a few eatables and many palyables.  Of course, toys big and small were dangling — cats, elephants, snakes, maruthi cars, cell phones, and surely guns, specially the AK 47 variety.  Ramesh dragged his feet to the shop and held on to a bamboo post.  His eyes were fixed on the guns.  Minutes were waving in and out.

 

The shop owner, a middle-aged woman, came out to the boy and said, “My dear boy, do you want to play with this toy gun?”  Her pleasing words excited Ramesh endlessly in a ripple.  A gun fell into the hands of the “yes”, “yes”, and “yes” boy.  He held and aimed at the lady’s forehead.  He pressed the trigger and the shot gave out a volley of laughter from the contended lady.  Rahul in his neighbourhood used to lend his toy gun to him for practice.  That is how Ramesh wanted to have his own gun.  The lady was impressed.

 

“It’s 6.30 in the evening.  It’s not advisable for you to return home”, said the lady.  She took him to her house behind the shop, fed him with a delicious dish, and lulled him to sleep, a sleep in guns and gunnings for which Ramesh was not at all prepared.

 

When he woke up the next morning, he found himself in the midst of a thick jungle.  He could see a number of young men and women there living close to nature.  A young lady brought him a cup of tea and told him, “You are going to be a real gun man now.  Wake up, have your tea and training.”  The boy weepingly said, “I want to go to my parents.  They will be searching for me” and added “I have my school to attend too”.

 

“Indeed, you will go to your school, but not in the town.  Here we have our own school of arms.  Come to my arms boy.  You can play with guns and of course you can kill our enemies.”  She went on glorifying the life in the forest and the boy went on crying.  She said, “No exam here.  No home homework.  In fact you can shoot down your teachers, who tortured you instead of teaching you.  You can even destroy your school buildings with bombs”.

 

“Is it? Toy guns I can carry.  These guns and bombs!  What can I do with them?”

 

The inquisitive boy asked.

 

That’s simple.  Stay here.  Help us with little things, to begin with.  Slowly we will train you to become a perfect gunman.  Right?” she suggested.

 

The young lady left and Ramesh stayed on.  He missed his parents, who could not buy him a toy gun.  But then he was gradually lost in smoking, drinking, drugging, and every othering.  All he got free.  With freedom.  He stayed on with the terrorists as he strayed from his parents, friends and society.

 

As a grown up young man, he was shooting down human beings for nothing but terrorizing the state.  He was thrilled to see the human bodies falling into the river of blood, which choked the lives of people between its banks.  One day Ramesh too fell into the river.  As he was gasping for breath in blood, he remembered his toy gun that gave him joy.  He was no longer in the world of memory but in the memory of the world as a terrorist.

 

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